me every few weeks: I. need. to. change. my life
Morning thoughts as always.
I post on my Instagram stories like a mental dump and start my day.
I didn’t think much about this one, I just felt something had to give to get me closer to my dreams. Im talking: Oscars, Red Carpets, Amazing Talented Actor, Creative and Entrepreneur. World domination at best.
A few hours later someone replies “Whitney I’m still trying to figure out if this is a plague, propellant or both”
I immediately burst out laughing because I’ve never considered it anything but good. A reminder. A boost. An active decision made on my own acknowledgement that I am alive and ready to live on my terms to get to where I need to be.
For me at this point, there’s so much changing for me and you’ll find out in a few months time but with acting and this journey I am on, I wake up to the realization that I want it more each day. Ever so often I realize what I can do to align me better to my dreams: reading more for class, practicing more, having a more balanced life so I don’t burnout during critical moments of the year. Hopefully, cultivate a stronger lifestyle against my usual seasonal depression and be happier, more content with my life.
It’s not always drastic, sometimes it is… lol like moving from Lagos, Nigeria to NYC out of sheer unhappiness. Sometimes, its as simple as praying in the morning or doing yoga everyday or reading a book on weekends to center my mind. Im just dramatic so its way more fun to say : I NEED TO CHANGE MY LIFE NOWWWWWW!
Personally, my journey in NYC has redefined how I listen to the seasons in my life. Im aware of the quiet times when I get no brand deals, the world is silent and I can rethink my goals and plans for the year and restore my strength. Im aware of a crazy random moment that implies change is coming. Im aware of the shifts and flows of my life now. Sad phases when I call to question what bothers me internally. Growth phases, when I need to change something in my life to advance. Things are happening to me and for me but if I see and understand what it means, I flow with it rather than resist it. and that makes life somewhat more enjoyable even if its a difficult or scary change. It is easier to let the tide carry you than to swin against it.
It's signs, walking into a room & feeling the energy that says "this is for you", it's waking up & realizing you can't run a marathon if you don't start practicing.
You gotta see the patterns in your life to know how to ride it & to know which ones to break free from etc.
I changed my life when I focused on hobbies that excite my curiosity, bring peace of mind and balance my life so I don’t burnout and so my creativity flows.
If you have goals you wish to achieve even if its as simple as going to the gym, then you really should look at changing your life - maybe waking up earlier helps you achieve it, maybe that means going to bed at a certain time so you get enough sleep. The ripple effect keeps flowing.
I need to change my life so I’m actively living consciously and not on auto pilot. If its every year, every month, every week, every day. That need is a brilliant reminder that life really has to be lived awake and intentionally.
I see it all as good, as my soul guiding me through my path and showing me the way.
WM:)